Recently I wrote about When God’s Works His Miracles…
As I was reading a Christian article today, I came across the subject “Stop Worrying that you’ll be wiped out financially.”
This brought me back to when I lost my job in September 2019. I was fortunate that I have stacked up some savings. Because little did I know, that losing my job was only the beginning of an eight-month journey of unexpected things to happen. People say when life’s circumstances change, you never know what it brings. Some life-changing events may mean good fortune. Like those who unexpectedly win the lottery, those who get a promotion at work through help from friends, life inheritance from long-lost families, or businesses that were passed down to generations.
However, not all life-changing events turn into a goldmine. Losing a job, the death of a loved one, or being diagnosed with cancer are simply not one of those.
When my mom passed away in October of 2019, I had to borrow money to send her casket back home so she can be buried next to my dad and my brother. My family has decided not to cremate her but to send her whole casket so our other siblings back home may also view and pay their respect.
When I was diagnosed with Breast cancer, I started using my savings to pay my monthly medical insurance through a government program. I found out that they are not free, you pay a certain amount which is a discounted rate they have negotiated with private insurance companies. I must admit it did help me a lot. I continued receiving bills from the hospitals each time they need to run any lab tests, or when they did my two surgeries and my radiation. All of these I paid through the savings I have stashed over the past years.
One time while writing checks, I stopped for a moment and asked myself, what if I do not get a job immediately and these bills continue coming? Suddenly worries crept into my thoughts. As I look into my savings account each week and see my funds are dropping, thoughts of prayer came to me.
I continuously pray my morning devotionals and my evening prayers. In between doing a job search, I paused and prayed for encouragement. Surprisingly, I did not panic, I just trusted the Lord. I know He is holding the reins of my life.
I remember praying before each job interview. I learned how to put up a brave face and spoke with a smile and confidence. That same evening, I would thank God for being with me and providing me the confidence and the wisdom that I needed.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6
Weeks have passed, as I was writing a check and noticed that I am now down to my last $350 and I know that there are still a few upcoming bills to pay. I said to myself, I am very close to getting hired. Yeah, it sounded crazy if you come to think of it. If you heard my thoughts, you would probably ask me “how do you know that you will be hired?” The answer is – I didn’t. The strangest thing is – I just felt it. As if God is saying, “your struggle will soon be over.”
Remember in my last article when I said that I started my job four days after my radiation? Well, I was offered the job two weeks after I saw my savings went down to $350.
You see, I have always felt that God was guiding me throughout my life. There are so much unexplained little miracles that I have experienced which is only now I am beginning to recognize that He has always been there and all I need to do is talk to Him, seek Him, and ask.
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened ~ Matthew 7:7-8
I was raised as a Christian but being a Christian to me means that I must walk in Faith, and I need to talk to God each moment. It is the same as when you are building a relationship with someone – you discuss your joy and pain, you share each moment of events of your life, you give your respect, love, trust, and almost everything that you can imagine. It is like getting excited that at the end of the day, you can’t wait to share your thoughts and your day with that someone. Prayer is exactly like that and so much more. Prayer builds that relationship with God. He responds to you in increments of miracles in your life.
© fm1 2.22.21