Betrayal and Sorrow

In one of R.C. Sproul’s Expositional Commentary in the Book of John, he wrote “betrayal is one of the most devastating experiences any human being can endure. The prevalence of betrayal is understandable in light of the prevalence of sin.” He was referring to Peter’s denial of Jesus in John 18:15-27

I couldn’t help but feel this deep cut in the core of my heart and in the pit of my stomach each time flood of ugly memories of betrayal occurs in my mind amid my suffering at the hands of my oppressors. Betrayal occurred a few times in my life, and I cannot tell which one is worse. It is a hideous and agonizing experience anyone can be subjected to and yet because of the darkness of the human heart, rarely we find an escape. Sadly, at one point in our lives, we will fall victim to betrayal. Somehow when your thoughts take you back to the scene, you can’t seem to find closure in each angle because there are no answers to the “whys and hows.” 

Imagine how Jesus felt at that moment witnessing the betrayal of his closest friend. Envision the stare when their eyes met during Peter’s denial. One could imagine the sorrow, the guilt, and the pain.

Where do you find refuge? How do you cope, and how do you survive?

In the midst of anxiety and discouragement, I found myself in Psalms; Psalm 140:1-13,  Psalm 143:1-12, and Psalm 3:1-8

Looking back, I will never have learned to let go and released myself from bitterness if I did not reflect on the Love of God  Proverbs 3:5-6

To this day, each morning, I start my day with thanksgiving and praise to the Almighty God who surrounds me with His protection and unconditional love.

“Lord, you are my portion
and my cup of blessing;
you hold my future.
The boundary lines have fallen for me
in pleasant places;
indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.”  ~ Psalm 16:5-6

©fm1 10.13.22